Change:
Change is constant in the universe. Nature is a prime example of change. Each season melds gracefully into the next one. Each change nourish and cleans the one before. Winter with its cold snow and ice hibernates the plants allowing them time to germinate. the ice and snow replenishes the water that was used during the heat of summer. Winter gives way to spring, when plants emerge from their hibernation. The buds and flowers bloom forth brining beauty from the barrenness of winter. Spring warms into summer. The blazing heat allowing the crops to ripen. Fall is a time for harvest.
Rocks and ground cover is also in constant change. The energy dynamics that course through the land change the imprint of the earth. Glaciers crack and fall, earthquakes open big canyons, waves simply erode the sand of beaches. Each moment is constant shifting and changing.
Even within ourselves, there is change. Our bodies renew the cells which create our beings. If these cells were not refreshed and renewed we would become sluggish, stagnant and die. Our thoughts also change with each interaction. We either agree more firmly with an idea or replace it with something new.
So why is it with personal change, we become afraid. We become afraid of a process created to continually nourish and sustain us. Change moves us forward and allows us to expand. When confronted by change we have a tendency to want to cling to the old and familiar. our fears preclude us from embracing the unknown that will nourish our beings. Even if the change isn’t what we expected, we still learn and grow.
I find myself in that seat of change. There are some very big changes which to manifest require I have the faith that it is right. And yet, knowing it is right I still want to desperately hold onto what I know. Suddenly, everything seems so final and fragile. I want to embrace it all and cling to it. I want to secretly stash away friends, moments and memories. The laughter and dinners I have with friends, i want to capture and hold onto. I’m afraid to let go or am I afraid to open up and let the new come in and nourish me? We know who we are but yet are so afraid of who we can become.
